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Well, I am coming up on a year since my big chop. I have gone from shock at being bald, to joy over the journey and now my emotions are somewhere in between depending in the day. Some days I am so frustrated with my hair I am tempted to cut it off again. Other times I say I might as well relax it again. But then I wake up and start playing with it, and end up with styles like this Mohawk. And I'm in love all over again.I am excited to be close to a year all natural, stay tuned for the one year post!

I'm Back!

Hello everyone!
I know its been a LONG time since I wrote anything here. Well not too long after my first post, I moved all the way to Illinois! I have been having issues with tho computer and working and just getting settled, but now I'm back! M hair had grown a lot and I have fallen even more in love with its look and texture! I am still in the dark about how to take care of it and the best products for it, but I'm learning and doing the best I can with what I have! Stay tuned for more updates and pictures soon!
Thanks
Astarie

Im A BALDIE!!

Today, August 17, 2011,  at about 12 in the morning, I cut all my hair off!!

For the past few months I have been contemplating going natural. Relaxers were becoming more of a hassle than a help. Im so sick of the chemicals, the trips to the salon and most of all my hair falling out and just not being healty. Now in all fairness to relaxers, I really didn't take great care of my hair when it was relaxed. I didn't feel like constantly oiling and straightening and trimming and anything else I needed to do. I was lazy about it.

I saw many ladies around me rocking the natural look and I envied them. I watch a lot of YouTube, and a lady that I found to help me do my RELAXED hair ended up going natural herself...so I made a decision. In the beginning I only cut the relaxer out of my hair,

Yes I cut it myself. It was empowering to do so. I had the control and it felt good. As the days went on I watched more videos and read articles and just tried to learn as much as I could. But I still wasn't happy with my hair. There was still too much relaxer in there for my hair to coil up like I wanted it to. So last night I decided to TRIM it...well I didn't put a guard on my clippers thinking I would be 'careful'. I was carefull til I just cut way to close to my head...Now I had a knot of no hair in the middle of my head! Hmm...what now? I had to cut it all off. My reaction was mixed at first. I was more or less resloved to what I had to do, so it didn't bother me too much, but then as I cut more and more, I started freaking out! I have never been this bald ever! There was a time a few years ago when I had to cut my hair due to a relaxer (should have learned back then...) but it wasnt as short. Then I thought of what my boyfriend would think. He likes the hair. It was short when we met, but not boy cut short. Yikes! Then, once it was all gone, I looked at myself and realized I felt empowered by the person I say in the mirror.

 She was beautiful even without the hair. Its still hard for me to explain. Its a rush of regalness I feel after losing it all. Its like being naked. And it was freedom. I am still getting used to the look and will probably wear headwraps til I feel a little more comfortable, but I hope that feeling stays with me. 

Thanks for Stopping by!

Astarie